Unconditional, what does that mean? The Webster definition states: Unconditional-not conditional or limited: absolute; unqualified. Some of the synonyms they give are all-out, complete, definite, flat-out, perfect, pure, simple, absolute, and utter. Those were just a few that I liked! This phrase 'Unconditional love' is one that I have strived for, for years! I love the Bible verse 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. This is one verse I have tried for so long to live by and it is so hard. I think I have failed in every area of what it says love is.
Personally I would like to say that I have a big heart! I love to love others! I want them to know they are loved! I try to show that to my family and friends in so many different ways. I've read the 5 Love Languages many times and it says that most people have one or two ways that they show love the strongest. I have a hard time picking what are my strongest! I find that I do them all! I'm not writing this to brag about myself or to say that I am the best at showing love. I know that I am not! I have just been struggling with this "topic" for a while and yesterday I had a LITTLE bit of a breakthrough and I wanted to share my thoughts. And that is all it is...my thoughts! Anyway, back to the love languages. I love to send cards, letters, and little gifts to people. I love to hang out with people, give them hugs, do things for them, etc. I admit I possible could do this a little too much but I enjoy it! I like to make people feel good and let them know I love them! BUT in the last few years it's really hit me hard how little people do it back or even just say a thank you! In my mind I don't get it! I don't understand why not! There really are few excuses not to.
Yesterday I had a bit of a break down and I called someone I thought would give me good advice and understand where I was coming from (mostly because we really are a lot alike). This person told me something that hit me. She said, "Think of it this way. Isn't what you are going through the same thing God goes through daily with all of us?" Hmm...Never thought of it that way! When I hung up I cried...some more...and prayed to God! I told him how sorry I am for ever hurting him the way I have! I never want anyone, especially HIM to hurt the way I do. She also told me that we have to get to a point where we do it simple for the enjoyment we get by doing those things for others! I would like to get to that point and fast! I hate being so disappointed and hurt and feeling like people don't love me and the only way I can do that is to love THEM unconditionally!
I love you all!!!!!!!!!
07 April 2011
24 March 2011
Week 3 and 4 of Boot Camp
So I didn't get to blog last week. It's been a pretty crazy month for me. In all honesty I am ready for it to slow down and to be in OKC. Yes I know even when I am there it will be crazy busy too but it will be a different kind of busy...one that I think I will enjoy! I am counting down the days...69 to go! 78 until the wedding day! :) Okay now back to boot camp....Last week, was a disappointing week for me. We weighted in like we do every week and....NOTHING. I didn't lose a thing! I feel like I work so hard and I try really hard to eat the right things and I expect to see SOMETHING but I got not an ounce! I left wanting to give up. Thinking to myself, "what's the point?" But this week I got back to it and I'm feeling strong again. We weight in again tonight and I hope no matter what it says I can stay strong and keep pushing through. I was told today by THREE people all in 2 hours that I looked GREAT and that I looked skinny!!! YAY!!! That made me feel good so at least I know something is working. :) I have an example of one of the workouts we did on Tuesday. It wasn't as bad as some of the others but it's one that I wrote down and thought I would challenge you all to try yourself.
Warm up on the bike for 5 minutes at a level 5 or 6
Push the level up to at least a 10 and peddle as hard as you can for 30 seconds and then slow it down for 30 seconds. Do this for 5 minutes.
2 sets of 30 on a shoulder weight machine
2 sets of 100 jump ropes
2 sets of 30 cattle bell swings
2 sets of 30 leg presses
5 mins at level 10 stair steppers
3 sets of 5 burpies
2 sets of 30 pull up machine
2 sets of 30 crunches with weighted ball
2 sets of 30 chest press
3 straight minutes-no stops wall squats (you put a yoga ball on your lower back and squat)
10% incline for 5 minutes on the treadmill
Finish with a 5 minute cool down on the bike
This is what we did on Tuesday night this week. I felt like I was going throw up by the end and had to stay longer than the 60 minutes to complete the whole thing but I did it! Try it out. If you don't know what something is find a trainer at your gym or email me and I'll explain the best I can. Anyway, I'll let yall know my result from my weight in tonight. Pray it's something good so my spirits will stay high! Much love from Sunny England (finally)!
Warm up on the bike for 5 minutes at a level 5 or 6
Push the level up to at least a 10 and peddle as hard as you can for 30 seconds and then slow it down for 30 seconds. Do this for 5 minutes.
2 sets of 30 on a shoulder weight machine
2 sets of 100 jump ropes
2 sets of 30 cattle bell swings
2 sets of 30 leg presses
5 mins at level 10 stair steppers
3 sets of 5 burpies
2 sets of 30 pull up machine
2 sets of 30 crunches with weighted ball
2 sets of 30 chest press
3 straight minutes-no stops wall squats (you put a yoga ball on your lower back and squat)
10% incline for 5 minutes on the treadmill
Finish with a 5 minute cool down on the bike
This is what we did on Tuesday night this week. I felt like I was going throw up by the end and had to stay longer than the 60 minutes to complete the whole thing but I did it! Try it out. If you don't know what something is find a trainer at your gym or email me and I'll explain the best I can. Anyway, I'll let yall know my result from my weight in tonight. Pray it's something good so my spirits will stay high! Much love from Sunny England (finally)!
11 March 2011
Boot Camp week 2=FINISHED
So I've completed two weeks of boot camp already. It's been hard. My body hurts so bad that I hardly can walk. Between my angle hurting, my knee hurting, my shins killing me, and then just the normal pain of muscle hurting I feel like I'm going to die...every day! It never gets better! lol I know in the end I will be proud and the pain will be worth it!
This week was tough. Monday we had to run at a 10% incline on the treadmill for 10 mins! UMMM...are they crazy?? LOL I couldn't run the whole time but I sure tired. My legs were burning so bad. After that they taught us how to use the weight machines. I have never left feeling like that after lifting weights. It was all legs and arms-two sets of 15 and in between each rotation we had to do push-ups and jumping squats. We rotated in between 7 different machines going around 3 times. It was tough.
Tuesday we went to the commissary and were taught what foods to eat and not eat and what things to buy and not to buy. I learned a lot of things such as your sugars should be 5 to 6 grams or less and your fats 6 to 7 grams. Whole wheat and no whites! But you have to check the first ingredient to make sure it says WHOLE WHEAT because there is a lot of false advertising on packages. We also had to do 60 mins of cardio that day since we didn't do anything at boot camp so I did the kickboxing class taught by one of our trainers.
Wednesday we did the 10% incline on the treadmill for 10 mins again and then we did the same thing we did with our arm and leg weight lifting but this time we did it with ab exercise. It was pretty killer. I laughed yesterday because I think it was on Tuesday that I read my friend Katie's status on Facebook where she said "It hurts my abs when I sneeze." I sneezed yesterday and laughed because it hurt when I sneezed. I felt your pain Katie! :) After the ab workout we had to do the same arm and leg machines 2 rounds.
Yesterday (Thursday) we weighed in!!! I weighed in at 166.4!!!!!! I have lost 4 pounds!!! The trainers were so impressed and very proud of me! I was the only one to really lose that much! I left feeling great! After weigh-in we did a high intensity workout with weighted bar, weighted balls and squats, running, and lunges!
With my results this past week of real workout and eating right (we started two weeks ago on Monday but we haven't really worked out or started eating right until Thursday) I feel great! I want to keep pushing myself and see how far I can go! It made me want to work even harder...no cheating when it comes to eating and working my hardest at each workout. The weekends are the hardest for me. There is usually at least one party of some short with lots of yummy yummy food but OH SO bad for me! We also have to do two day so of work out on the weekend. They call it our homework. This weekend’s homework is to do 2 different cardios for 35mins and 500 total of our 3 "favorite" ab workouts, 500 jump ropes, and 50 pushups. I think that's it! :) I don't have it in front of me.
Thank you to everyone who keeps encouraging me and supporting me! I truly appreciate it!
This week was tough. Monday we had to run at a 10% incline on the treadmill for 10 mins! UMMM...are they crazy?? LOL I couldn't run the whole time but I sure tired. My legs were burning so bad. After that they taught us how to use the weight machines. I have never left feeling like that after lifting weights. It was all legs and arms-two sets of 15 and in between each rotation we had to do push-ups and jumping squats. We rotated in between 7 different machines going around 3 times. It was tough.
Tuesday we went to the commissary and were taught what foods to eat and not eat and what things to buy and not to buy. I learned a lot of things such as your sugars should be 5 to 6 grams or less and your fats 6 to 7 grams. Whole wheat and no whites! But you have to check the first ingredient to make sure it says WHOLE WHEAT because there is a lot of false advertising on packages. We also had to do 60 mins of cardio that day since we didn't do anything at boot camp so I did the kickboxing class taught by one of our trainers.
Wednesday we did the 10% incline on the treadmill for 10 mins again and then we did the same thing we did with our arm and leg weight lifting but this time we did it with ab exercise. It was pretty killer. I laughed yesterday because I think it was on Tuesday that I read my friend Katie's status on Facebook where she said "It hurts my abs when I sneeze." I sneezed yesterday and laughed because it hurt when I sneezed. I felt your pain Katie! :) After the ab workout we had to do the same arm and leg machines 2 rounds.
Yesterday (Thursday) we weighed in!!! I weighed in at 166.4!!!!!! I have lost 4 pounds!!! The trainers were so impressed and very proud of me! I was the only one to really lose that much! I left feeling great! After weigh-in we did a high intensity workout with weighted bar, weighted balls and squats, running, and lunges!
With my results this past week of real workout and eating right (we started two weeks ago on Monday but we haven't really worked out or started eating right until Thursday) I feel great! I want to keep pushing myself and see how far I can go! It made me want to work even harder...no cheating when it comes to eating and working my hardest at each workout. The weekends are the hardest for me. There is usually at least one party of some short with lots of yummy yummy food but OH SO bad for me! We also have to do two day so of work out on the weekend. They call it our homework. This weekend’s homework is to do 2 different cardios for 35mins and 500 total of our 3 "favorite" ab workouts, 500 jump ropes, and 50 pushups. I think that's it! :) I don't have it in front of me.
Thank you to everyone who keeps encouraging me and supporting me! I truly appreciate it!
03 March 2011
Boot Camp, here I come!
Two years ago I was at my thinnest and most fit stage of my life! I felt great about the way I looked and I was so proud to say I beat the odds that were put against me by some of my family. I remember growing up and being told "don't you worry; you will get big like the rest of us. Your day is coming! You're a Fraley" I was proud to show those that said those things to me that I could do it! But then....I came home from South Korea and moved to England and now two years later they were right!!! I am at my largest and most unfit stage of my life. I HATE it! I hate the way I look! I just want to wear sweat pants and sweat shirts all the time. I hate that I can't wear my cute clothes taking up the little space I have in my closet. I hate that I have to buy bigger clothes. I hate that I can't do the things I use to be able to do. I hate that I don't feel pretty EVER! Well, I have had enough of hating myself and letting the odds against me win! SO, I joined boot camp!
No, I'm not going to the Army! :) At the gym on base they have a 6 week program with two highly trained fitness trainers that is a high intensity, butt kicking boot camp! I started on Monday the 28th and will go until April 7th. Its 4 days a week for an hour.
On Monday we weighed in to track our starting weight. I weighed in at 170lbs. Tuesday we did our first 1.5 mile run. When they said we were running....outside....in the cold....on the track. I thought to myself, what the heck am I doing?!?!? I can't do that! I HATE running! BUT, I got out there, no complaining (out loud), and I ran...and ran....and ran. I ran the mile without stopping! I was so proud of myself! I have NEVER done that in my life! So I had to keep going but I got a cramp so I did stop walk for the first curve and the last curve but I finished at 16.50. Not bad for someone who has never even done a mile much less a mile and a half! I was so proud of myself! At the end of the camp we will do the run again to see what progress we have made. Yesterday we did the rest of our assessments. We did are measurements first. My neck:13 , waist:30 , hips:41 , thighs:r-23.5, l-23.5, calves:r-16.25, l-16 , and biceps:r-13.5, l-13. We did the rest in 1 minute. Jump rope: 107, ball squats:47 , push-ups:38 , and sit-ups:41 . Just from those things I feel like my body got ran over by a big truck! And they say tonight is suppose to kick our butts! : /
My plan is to keep you all updated on my progress. I'm going to lay out there all the bad things that I hate so much about myself and I need your encouragement to keep going! I want to go home in June feeling good about myself not embarrassed and ashamed and ugly! I want my wedding dress to look amazing on me and for me to walk down the aisle with my head held high! So here I go...off to boot camp!
No, I'm not going to the Army! :) At the gym on base they have a 6 week program with two highly trained fitness trainers that is a high intensity, butt kicking boot camp! I started on Monday the 28th and will go until April 7th. Its 4 days a week for an hour.
On Monday we weighed in to track our starting weight. I weighed in at 170lbs. Tuesday we did our first 1.5 mile run. When they said we were running....outside....in the cold....on the track. I thought to myself, what the heck am I doing?!?!? I can't do that! I HATE running! BUT, I got out there, no complaining (out loud), and I ran...and ran....and ran. I ran the mile without stopping! I was so proud of myself! I have NEVER done that in my life! So I had to keep going but I got a cramp so I did stop walk for the first curve and the last curve but I finished at 16.50. Not bad for someone who has never even done a mile much less a mile and a half! I was so proud of myself! At the end of the camp we will do the run again to see what progress we have made. Yesterday we did the rest of our assessments. We did are measurements first. My neck:13 , waist:30 , hips:41 , thighs:r-23.5, l-23.5, calves:r-16.25, l-16 , and biceps:r-13.5, l-13. We did the rest in 1 minute. Jump rope: 107, ball squats:47 , push-ups:38 , and sit-ups:41 . Just from those things I feel like my body got ran over by a big truck! And they say tonight is suppose to kick our butts! : /
My plan is to keep you all updated on my progress. I'm going to lay out there all the bad things that I hate so much about myself and I need your encouragement to keep going! I want to go home in June feeling good about myself not embarrassed and ashamed and ugly! I want my wedding dress to look amazing on me and for me to walk down the aisle with my head held high! So here I go...off to boot camp!
17 January 2011
Choosing to SEE
So this blog has a couple of different things I wanted to talk about. It's funny that now when things happen or I see or hear about something I've started to think to myself, "hmmm, that would be a good thing to blog about" but I never seem to have the time. Plus I'm just not that good at putting my thoughts down in words. But I do try.
First, I wanted to tell you all about this book I have been reading. Yes! I HAVE been reading a book (when I find the time so it has taken longer than it should)! Most of you know that I'm not one to sit down and just read. I've never enjoyed it simple because my mind can't just stay focused on what I'm reading. It starts to wonder to something else so only part of my mind is taken in what I'm reading. It's really annoying actually because I think I could enjoy reading a lot more. Anyway, I've been reading this book that JT's mother sent to me called Choosing to SEE by Mary Beth Chapman. If you haven't heard about their story (which I'm sure most of you have and I'm just the last one to hear about it) you should read this book. Even if you have heard about their story, you should read it! It's amazing to me how they made it through the things they have gone through and still praise God through it all! I love how much their family loves each other and would do ANYTHING for one another (something I've been striving for since I was a bossy little girl). And I love the love they have for Christ even though they have suffered they way they have. One thing Mary Beth has taught me is that I have been fed a LOT of BIG lies from Satan and I've allowed myself to believe them! She didn't! And I admire that in her! I would give anything to be as strong as she is because I'm drowning here and so desperately want to be back to the girl God intended me to be. Maybe one day! Soon, I hope! This book has made me laugh, made me cry, made me value the people who are important to me more, and made me soften my heart just a bit more. You should read it too!
Second, I watched this movie last night that was a true story about a black lady who was treated wrongly by a man in Georgia and was wrongly accused of killing the man and was sentenced to the electric chair. The first and only women to be killed by the electric chair in the state of Georgia. As I cried while watching her suffer and be treated so wrongfully, I thought to myself, "how in the world could people have thought it was okay to treat other human beings that way JUST because they had different skin color?" I love watching movies that are true like this because it makes me want to be a person who makes a difference. The sad thing is I always have had the good intentions....I want to go to Africa to help those who are in need, I want to help the poor who have no home or food to eat, I want to help those that are beaten and treated wrongly, I want to give love to those who have never known love....but I never seem to act on those intentions! Yes, I show those around me love and yes I've gone on several mission trips to help those who are poor and have no home and no food but have I really DONE something? I WANT to do more but I never do! I don't know if it's that I'm scared or have the lack of resources to get started but whatever it is I'm tired of sitting around saying, "oh that is so sad! Someone should do something to help them!" and I want to start being that "someone" to help them. There is so much to do even around our own cities. It just always seems that something is always keeping us busy. I'm thinking it's time to unbusy ourselves and start acting!
And finally, the thing I wanted to talk about that has to do with the title of this blog. A few blogs ago I wrote you all and shared the really big struggles I am facing right now. One of those struggles being "friends"! Well, I feel like I've made a change by opening up more and being more friendly. I've kind of found the old cheerful, friendly Dana I use to be and started smiling and saying hello to people as they pass by and I've even just started walking around work and while running around on base with a smile on all the time and actually feeling happy. I feel different then I did a few months ago and feel like I've made progress BUT it's funny because as I'm starting to feel more like myself, the friendship department has gone downhill big time. In fact to be 100% honest I feel that I have no friends here at all. It's been hard for me. I watch people going out together all the time, getting together for this and that, having Bible studies together, etc and I'm never invited. I sit at home every night, including weekends. Now, yes this is a bit good in the sense that if I'm home then I'm not out spending money that I truly do not have but it would at least be nice to be invited to something. This weekend was probably one of the hardest ones. As I cried to JT he told me something that he has told me before but this time it hit me hard! He told me, "I'm sorry I brought you into this world and I know it's going to be so hard for you but you most likely will never find a TRUE friend as long as we are in the military world." We talked about this for a while because it is very hard for me. He is TRULY my best friend and man did I get the MOST wonderful and amazing, BEST best friend in the world! I just feel sorry for him because that means he gets it all. All the complaining, and hurt I feel, the excitement and silly girly stuff, EVERYTHING. But he does handle it better than most girls do! :) But, the thing he said was on my mind all weekend and made me think. There must be something God is trying to do in my life right now! I know he didn't make me the way he did so later in life I can be sad and hurting the rest of my life. I know that I need to take this time and open my ears and my heart and listen to what it is he is trying to teach me. I ask that you all will pray that I will soften my heart, listen to him, and allow him to teach me whatever it is he is trying to teach me! And also pray that JT will have a LOT of patience with me! :)
First, I wanted to tell you all about this book I have been reading. Yes! I HAVE been reading a book (when I find the time so it has taken longer than it should)! Most of you know that I'm not one to sit down and just read. I've never enjoyed it simple because my mind can't just stay focused on what I'm reading. It starts to wonder to something else so only part of my mind is taken in what I'm reading. It's really annoying actually because I think I could enjoy reading a lot more. Anyway, I've been reading this book that JT's mother sent to me called Choosing to SEE by Mary Beth Chapman. If you haven't heard about their story (which I'm sure most of you have and I'm just the last one to hear about it) you should read this book. Even if you have heard about their story, you should read it! It's amazing to me how they made it through the things they have gone through and still praise God through it all! I love how much their family loves each other and would do ANYTHING for one another (something I've been striving for since I was a bossy little girl). And I love the love they have for Christ even though they have suffered they way they have. One thing Mary Beth has taught me is that I have been fed a LOT of BIG lies from Satan and I've allowed myself to believe them! She didn't! And I admire that in her! I would give anything to be as strong as she is because I'm drowning here and so desperately want to be back to the girl God intended me to be. Maybe one day! Soon, I hope! This book has made me laugh, made me cry, made me value the people who are important to me more, and made me soften my heart just a bit more. You should read it too!
Second, I watched this movie last night that was a true story about a black lady who was treated wrongly by a man in Georgia and was wrongly accused of killing the man and was sentenced to the electric chair. The first and only women to be killed by the electric chair in the state of Georgia. As I cried while watching her suffer and be treated so wrongfully, I thought to myself, "how in the world could people have thought it was okay to treat other human beings that way JUST because they had different skin color?" I love watching movies that are true like this because it makes me want to be a person who makes a difference. The sad thing is I always have had the good intentions....I want to go to Africa to help those who are in need, I want to help the poor who have no home or food to eat, I want to help those that are beaten and treated wrongly, I want to give love to those who have never known love....but I never seem to act on those intentions! Yes, I show those around me love and yes I've gone on several mission trips to help those who are poor and have no home and no food but have I really DONE something? I WANT to do more but I never do! I don't know if it's that I'm scared or have the lack of resources to get started but whatever it is I'm tired of sitting around saying, "oh that is so sad! Someone should do something to help them!" and I want to start being that "someone" to help them. There is so much to do even around our own cities. It just always seems that something is always keeping us busy. I'm thinking it's time to unbusy ourselves and start acting!
And finally, the thing I wanted to talk about that has to do with the title of this blog. A few blogs ago I wrote you all and shared the really big struggles I am facing right now. One of those struggles being "friends"! Well, I feel like I've made a change by opening up more and being more friendly. I've kind of found the old cheerful, friendly Dana I use to be and started smiling and saying hello to people as they pass by and I've even just started walking around work and while running around on base with a smile on all the time and actually feeling happy. I feel different then I did a few months ago and feel like I've made progress BUT it's funny because as I'm starting to feel more like myself, the friendship department has gone downhill big time. In fact to be 100% honest I feel that I have no friends here at all. It's been hard for me. I watch people going out together all the time, getting together for this and that, having Bible studies together, etc and I'm never invited. I sit at home every night, including weekends. Now, yes this is a bit good in the sense that if I'm home then I'm not out spending money that I truly do not have but it would at least be nice to be invited to something. This weekend was probably one of the hardest ones. As I cried to JT he told me something that he has told me before but this time it hit me hard! He told me, "I'm sorry I brought you into this world and I know it's going to be so hard for you but you most likely will never find a TRUE friend as long as we are in the military world." We talked about this for a while because it is very hard for me. He is TRULY my best friend and man did I get the MOST wonderful and amazing, BEST best friend in the world! I just feel sorry for him because that means he gets it all. All the complaining, and hurt I feel, the excitement and silly girly stuff, EVERYTHING. But he does handle it better than most girls do! :) But, the thing he said was on my mind all weekend and made me think. There must be something God is trying to do in my life right now! I know he didn't make me the way he did so later in life I can be sad and hurting the rest of my life. I know that I need to take this time and open my ears and my heart and listen to what it is he is trying to teach me. I ask that you all will pray that I will soften my heart, listen to him, and allow him to teach me whatever it is he is trying to teach me! And also pray that JT will have a LOT of patience with me! :)
13 January 2011
Time for a serious change
So today I went to the doctors. I had some blood tests done yesterday and my doctor wanted to go over the results with me. Found out some kind of scary results. She told me that my bad cholesterol is too high. It is at 217 and should be below 100. Not good! My calcium is a bit low. It's 8.8 and should be at 10.5 and my glucose is a bit high. It's at 106.5 and should below 100. This isn't good. They gave me lots of information on how to lower your cholesterol and told me that if my glucose doesn't go down that they need to test me for diabetes. Hmmm....not a good thing! So from today forward I have to make changes on how to eat my food. I was sent to the HAWK on base which is a place that helps people with eating healthy and exercising right. They have all kinds of classes to teach you how to do things such as cooking....so I was told I need to go to one of these classes to teach me how to cook healthy.
I want to take this time to ask my family and friends to make some of these same changes in their own lives and way of eating. I know it takes me time to plan things out and it is just so much easier to go to Taco Bell (yummy Taco Bell) but we need to think of our long term health and our kid’s health. So starting today my life is going to be changing, why don't you make that change too?
I want to take this time to ask my family and friends to make some of these same changes in their own lives and way of eating. I know it takes me time to plan things out and it is just so much easier to go to Taco Bell (yummy Taco Bell) but we need to think of our long term health and our kid’s health. So starting today my life is going to be changing, why don't you make that change too?
01 January 2011
Happy New Year
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Happy New Year everyone! I pray that my new year is just that...happy! I also pray that all of your new years are happy too! I've been thinking about what my first blog of 2011 should be about. Should I write my New Years resolutions, or should I write about my past year events? Or perhaps I should write about the things that have been troubling my heart and my desires to make them better. I decided that I'm going to try and focus on the future and how I can make it better then my past. So here are the things that I want to focus on this New Year.
1. I want to focus on my relationship with Christ and how I can make it stronger; reading my Bible, praying, getting involved at church....
2. I want to focus on loving JT unconditionally and whole heartily, being the best wife for him; writing him little notes, doing devotions together as a couple, date nights once a week, taking care of him when he needs it, learning to understand our differences and accept them, tell him I love him everyday...
4. I want to focus on learning how to love myself; stop thinking and saying negative things about myself, taking care of my body and heath, believing that I am worthy of love and that I AM loved.....
These 4 things cover a LOT and are going to take a lot of dedication and effort but I know it is time for me to let go of so much and make a lot of changes starting with giving control back to my God.
I am excited for what 2011 hold. JT and I only have 160 days from today until our wedding day and I am beyond excited. I am going to be working on losing weight for the next 5 months so that I can look great for that day as well as just feeling better about myself! I could really use all of your encouragement and support because it's been hard to stay strong with it but I know I can do it and I WILL!!!!
Well again, Happy New Year to you all and I truly pray that your new year does bring happiness!!! I can't wait to see some of you in this coming year and know that I hold you all close to my heart.
Tell me what are some of you New Year resolutions?????
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